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“ ‘Why did you become a vampire?’ I blurtedout. ‘And why such a vampire as you are! Vengeful and delighting in takinghuman life even when you have no need. This girl…why did you kill her when onewould have done? And why did you frighten her so before you killed her? And whyhave you propped her here in some grotesque manner, as if tempting the gods tostrike you down for your blasphemy?’ “‘你为什么要变为吸血鬼？’我冲口而出，‘而且变成你现在这样的吸血鬼！报复心重，乐于取人性命，即便不需要的时候也杀人。这个女孩……你为什么要杀她，一个人的血不是就够了吗？你为什么要把她们摆成这么怪诞的姿势？是不是你要用这种方式亵渎神灵，诱使神灵来惩罚你，是吗？’“All this he listened to without speaking,and in the pause that followed I again felt at a loss. Lestat’s eyes were largeand thoughtful; I’d seen them that way before, but I couldn’t remember when, certainlynot when talking to me. “他一言不发地听我说着这些话。我稍一停顿，便又有一种茫然的感觉。莱斯特大睁着眼睛在思索。我以前见过他这个样子，不过记不清是什么时候了，反正不是在对我说话的时候。“ ‘What do you think a vampire is?’ he askedme sincerely. “‘你认为吸血鬼是什么样的呢？’他诚恳地问我。“ ‘I don’t pretend to know. You pretend toknow. What is it?’ I asked. And to this he answered nothing. It was as if he sensed theinsincerity of it, the spite. He just sat there looking at me with the same still expression. Then I said, ‘I knowthat after leaving you, I shall try to find out. I’ll travel the world, if I have to, to find othervampires. I know they must exist; I don’t know of any reasons why they shouldn’t exist in great numbers. AndI’m confident I shall find vampires who have more in common with me than I with you. Vampireswho understand knowledge as I do and have used their superior vampire nature to learn secrets ofwhich you don’t even dream. If you haven’t told me everything, I shall find things out formyself or from them, when I find them.’ “‘我并没有自称我知道，而你却说你知道。那么是什么样的呢？’我反问他。他闭口不答，似乎感觉到了我话里不诚恳的味道，以及语气里的敌意。他只是坐在那儿看着我，神情依然很平静。我接着说：‘我知道离开你之后，我得去搜寻，如果必要的话，得游遍全世界，寻找其他的吸血鬼。我知道一定还会有吸血鬼存在。我不知道为什么会没有大量的吸血鬼，而且我相信能找到和我有更多共同之处的吸血鬼。还会有吸血鬼像我一样懂得知识，用他们超人的本性了解你甚至不曾想象到的奥秘。如果你还有什么没告诉我，那我可以自己搞清楚，或者如果找到他们的话，从他们那里去了解。’“He shook his head. ‘Louis!’ he said. ‘Youare in love with your mortal nature! You chase after the phantoms of your former self. Freniere, hissister…these are images for you of what you were and what you still long to be. And in yourromance with mortal life, you’re dead to your vampire nature!’ “他摇摇头。‘路易，’他说，‘你迷恋于你的人性！你在追逐以前那个自我的影子，弗雷尼尔、他的姊妹……他们都是你以前的化身，也是你渴求的形象。在你对人生的浪漫向往中，你吸血鬼的本性便死亡了！’
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