权游小恶魔 | 这些是闪亮的，更重要的人 Peter Dinklage (Tyrion Lannister)

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don't be frightened who aren't a

Bennington student ten minutes before

you come up to the podium hands you a

mace

that he made if you don't bring it to

the podium with you you'll never be

Bennington

so I would like to thank you Ben for

helping me put the fear of God in the

audience tonight but I have to put it

down because I'm an actor and I'm really

the week that was heavy it wasn't like a

prop

that was real thanks Ben uh so now

I'm gonna read and I'm not off book

sorry I might be looking down a lot

Thank You president Coleman Brian and

Conover faculty students family alumni

some of whom are dear friends of mine

who have traveled all the way from the

big city to see me

hopefully not humiliate myself tonight

and especially thanks to you the

graduating class of 2012

see I as a joke I wrote hold for

applause and I was actually gonna read

that so you kind of killed my joke let's

let's do that again mm drop hold for

applause 2012 wow I never thought I'd

see 2012

I thought perhaps the Mayan calendar

would prove correct and the end of the

world would have been the greatest

excuse to get me out of this terrifying

task of delivering the commencement

speech but wait according to the Mayan

calendar here when does the world in

December December 2012 damn okay maybe I

shouldn't talk to the graduates eager to

start the new lives about the end of the

world okay really really of all the

novelists teachers playwrights poets

groundbreaking visual artists and

pioneers of science you got the TV actor

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and I actually heard you petition for me

oh you fools you know what for those of

you who didn't petition for me I would

love to later on talk about the problems

in the Middle East and the you know the

downfall of the world economy and for

those of you who did petition for me I

don't have any signed DVDs of the game

of Thrones but I'm happy to talk about

the parallel lineages of the Targaryen

Zin the Lannisters later at the bar you

see it took all of my strength and of

course a little extra push from my wife

Erica for me agree to agree to do this

because I don't do this in my profession

I am told by people who know what

they're doing where to stand how to look

and most importantly what to say

but you've got me only me my words

unedited and as you will see quite

embarrassing okay let me think I'm

thinking but max I didn't read that that

was ad-lib let me think what has

everyone and their uncle told me as I

desperately seek out advice on how to

give a commencement address tell them

what they want to hear talk about your

time at Bennington know that there is no

wrong speech I like that one

just keep it brief that was my

father-in-law be brutally honest

tell them how hard it is after you

graduate we'll get back to that one

just watch Meryl Streep's commencement

speech at Barnard and you'll be fine

what did Beckett say I can't go on I'll

go on so even if I don't burn in your

hearts and minds long after this speech

is over even if I don't inspire you to

reach for the stars and beyond even if I

am erased from your memory after one

glass of wine tonight where am I going

with this I can't go on I'll go on

you know I won't speak of my time here

like some old fisherman you have already

had your time here you have your own

story to tell but I have to say for me

it did start here in Vermont on a very

rainy night it was 1987 and I was a

prospective student the rain was coming

down so hard it was impossible to see

that I was meeting the person who would

later become my greatest friend and

collaborator a freshman who would 17

years later and introduced me to the

woman that became my wife I'll call him

Sherm because I do

it was late at night on the road right

there near booth house and despite the

dark night and the heavy rain this place

was so alive the lights pulsed from each

of the dorms now I was a kid from New

Jersey who went to an all-boys Catholic

High School I was four foot something I

mumbled when I spoke I wore a sort of

woman's black velvet cape

black tights combat boots and a scowl

but here at Bennington I was home

and I have to say it doesn't get better

hmm let me clarify there are not shinier

more important people out there your

fellow students your friends sitting

around you are as good as it gets 22

years after my own graduation I have

worked with my rainy night friend and

fellow graduate Sherm on countless

productions

he has written in all stages of

development from living rooms to

off-broadway Brooks Ian Justin breath

John Matthews Jim Shawn Hyland Ikki

entha B are all classmates

I shared my time with here and still

work with and I'm lucky to call my

friends we are very spoiled here people

always say to me for such a small school

it seems like there are so many of you

I find that really interesting and I

kind of think that's perfect we can't

help it we burn very brightly please

don't ever stop graduates now when I sat

where you are right sitting right now

I had so many dreams of where I wanted

to go who I wanted to be and what I

wanted to do theater companies I wanted

to start with classmates movies I wanted

to be in directors I wanted to work with

stories I weeded to tell it might take a

little time I thought but it would

happen when i sat there excuse me 22

years ago what I didn't want to think

about is where I would be tomorrow what

I would have to start to do tomorrow and

I graduated in 1991 a great year a time

of resurgence for independent films in

this country a time of relatively

affordable rents in New York City let's

see I assumed that I could make a living

writing my plays acting way off off off

Broadway and hopefully one day join the

actors I loved and respected in those

independent films TV Oh what no what are

you kidding me no didn't even consider

that I had much more class than that

much more self-respect than that soap

operas in ship what I didn't have was

cash a bank account a credit card or an

apartment I just had debt a big hungry

growing larger every moment debt so as

you will tomorrow I had to leave

beautiful Vermont I packed the life that

I knew with socks and a toothbrush into

my backpack and I slept on couch after

couch after couch after couch

at friends apartments in New York until

I wore out their rent paying roommates

welcome I didn't want a day job I was an

actor I was a writer I was a Bennington

graduate I had to get a day job I dusted

pianos at a piano store on Ludlow Street

for five months I worked on the property

of a Shakespeare scholar for a year

pulling weeds and removing bees nests I

went on unemployment once but for not

for long I couldn't handle the guilt

eventually I was able to pay rent for a

spot on the floor of an apartment on the

Lower East Side but my roommate had a

breakdown and disappeared he later

resurfaced in a religious cult I'm

making this sound romantic

it really wasn't I helped hang paintings

at galleries paintings that inspired to

inspire you to think I could do that

and then finally after two years of job

and couchsurfing I got a job in

application processing as a data enter

er at a place called professional

examination services and I stayed for

six years six years longer than my time

at Bennington from the age of 23 to 29

well they loved me there I was funny I

wore black no cape no tights I smoked in

the loading docks with the guys from the

mailroom and we shared how hungover we

all were everyone called each other

shorty

what's up shorty how you doing shorty

also hungover shorty I called in sick

almost every Friday because I was out

late the night before I hated that job

and I clung to that job because of that

job I could afford my own place so I

lived in Williamsburg Brooklyn ended

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yeah you say that now

or my kingdom for a time machine yeah

that's right I lived in an industrial

loft my rent was $400 a month my dream

of running a theater company with my

friend and fellow Bennington graduate

Ian Bell had died I won't go into those

details but neither one of us had any

business sense and the theater we lived

in it had no heat or hot water we didn't

smell very good but we had our youth the

youth gets old very quickly you'll see

so Ian moved out to Seattle and I moved

up to the street to my loft and I still

didn't have heat in 1993 industrial loft

meant not legal to live there I see I

don't want this to sound cool and I feel

like it's sounding cool ad lib

but I did have hot water mm-hmm

hot water in my bathroom which a friend

of mine using said bathroom once shouted

it smells exactly like a summer camp in

here it was true for some reason in the

middle of Brooklyn there was earth in my

shower actual earth and then look

mushrooms growing from the earth but I

was safe though the ideal fire control

company was right across the street

where they make all the chemicals that

put out chemical fires I did not fear a

chemical fire I would be okay and all

those chemicals in the air were okay too

because up the street we had the spice

factory they made spices and that just

covered everything up in a nice human

scent I had a rat but that was okay

because I got a cat his name was Brian

no relation

my grandmother had given me a pink

pull-out couch oddly no friends or

recent graduates wanted to crash on my

couch so I put the couch on its end so

Brian could climb it and look out the

window I had only the one window I

myself could not look out the window it

was it was quite high so I had no heat

no girlfriend what are you kidding me no

acting agent but I had a cat named Brian

who told me of the world outside

and I stayed for ten years

no don't pity me there's a happy ending

when I was 29 I told myself the next

acting job I get no matter what it pays

I will from now on for better or worse

be a working actor so I quit my position

at the professional examination services

my friends really weren't happy about

that because he was so easy to find me

when I worked there work was the only

place I had the Internet this was at the

beginning of the Internet and now I

didn't have either the internet or a

cell phone for a job but something good

happened I got a low-paying theater job

in a play called imperfect love which

led to a film called 13 moons with the

same writer which led to other roles

which led to other roles and I've worked

as an actor ever since

but I didn't know that would happen at

29 walking away from data processing I

was terrified ten years in a place

without he six years at a job I felt

stuck in maybe I was afraid of change

are you my parents didn't have much

money but they struggled to send me to

the best schools and one of the most

important things they did for me and

graduates maybe you don't want to hear

this is that once I graduated I was on

my own

financially it was my turn parents are

applauding graduates are not but this

made me very hungry

literally

I couldn't be lazy now I'm totally lazy

but back then I couldn't be

and so at 29 and a very long last I was

in the company of the actors and writers

and directors I'd sought out that first

year that first day after school I was I

am by their sides raised the rest of

your life to meet you don't search for

defining moments because they will never

come

well the birth of your children okay

of course forget about it that's I just

six months she's my life is forever

changed that's the most defining moment

ever but I'm talking about in the rest

of your life and most importantly in

your work the moments that define you

have already happened and they will