Unit12—A文章—Feeling Free

2024-03-04 20:26:3704:09 9172
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感受自由
一醒来我的心情就很糟糕。我不想做家务,尽管要洗的衣服已经堆积如山。我也不想理会那些我从办公室带回家的工作。我不想做任何负责任的事。这就是那样的一天。
当我喝早茶的时候,我就感到阵阵头痛袭来。是的,就是,一阵隐隐约约的疼痛充斥着我的眼睛。或许,我应该继续睡觉直到疼痛消失。当我把盘子丢进水槽里的时候,我的肌肉好像也开始隐隐作痛。或许是我的关节在痛?那是不是我得了流感了呢?我认识的每个人今年都得了流感。凭什么我幸免于此?我的确应该躺在床上。
我拖拉着回到床上,在被子下扭动了下就闭上了眼睛。能再睡几小时就好了,可我现在已经完全清醒了。我应该起床。不,还是不要了。我的头还痛着,鼻子也开始抽抽搭搭了,我最好去拿些纸巾。
我去浴室取了一盒家庭装的纸巾,在回到卧室的路上,我停下来抓起那本我早买了但一直没有时间看的大部头小说。我靠在枕头上打开了书。
一早上就这样过去了,我的阅读也这样继续着。接着我又看了20页,我伸展了一下身体。我应该把那个我一直忙着的工作报告做完。或许,我至少应该起床,洗点衣服。要是我患了传染性感冒怎么办?我可不想传播细菌啊。那些脏衣服可以等等再洗。家人有足够的能力找到第二天能穿的衣服。
或许我根本就没有感冒。我其实也并非真想生病。说实话,我只是想要一点闲暇的时间而已。我想让自己远离人群、琐事、职业以及外面的世界。我就非得等到生病了才能那样吗?孩子能不上课或不做家务的唯一方法就是生病,但我已经不再是个孩子了。我不得不装出生病的症状来给自己找借口吗?不,我决定了,我不需要。
我和自己交谈,好的,我说,你需要休息一天。承认吧,接受吧,抛掉罪恶感,去享受这个小假期。那你想做些什么呢?阅读吗?你已经那么做了啊。要不就纵容一下自己,洗个泡泡浴?还是就做个隐士,让答录机去接电话呢?
我在水中倒了半瓶沐浴露,还加了一大把甘菊浴盐,然后点起一支香草味的蜡烛,轻手轻脚地走进了浴缸里。我长舒了一口气,泡起了自制的水疗。我听见远处电话响起,笑而不应。
真是有意思,在热气腾腾的浴缸里,那些疼痛竞消失得无影无踪了,它们都随着最后的泡泡流进了下水道里。我的头感觉好多了,眼痛也被美好的感觉取而代之。
下午晚些时候,我恢复了精神,身体上,精神上,情绪上全都焕然一新。我也不再感到无助,反而感觉到充满力量。我给了自己倾听并满足自己需求的机会,像照顾家人一样关心了一下自己。我根本不需要生病这样的理由去休息。这其实是一个非常简单的意识,不过难道不是那些简单的事情让我们感到自由吗?

Feeling Free
I woke up feeling cranky. I didn't want to do housework, though the laundry was piling up. I didn't want to read the work I brought home from the office. I didn't want to do anything that resembled responsible behavior. It was that kind of day.
As I drank my morning tea, I thought I felt a headache coming on. Yes, there it was, a dull throb just behind my eyes. Maybe I should go back to bed until it subsided. As I put the dishes in the sink,it seemed that my muscles were beginning to ache. Or was the ache in my joints?That could mean I was coming down with the flu. Everyone I knew had the flu this year. Why should I be the one to escape it? I absolutely should be in bed.
I shuffled back to bed, wiggled under the covers and shut my eyes. Another couple of hours of sleep would be so nice,but I was already completely awake. I ought to get up. But no, there was that headache and the beginning of a sniffle. Better get the tissues.
On my way back from the bathroom with a family-sized tissue box, I stopped to grab that big new novel I had bought but had no time to read.I opened the book and settled against the pillows.
The morning was moving along and so was my reading. Another twenty pages and I was stretching. I should try to crack the report I was working on. I should at least get up and do the wash. What if I was contagious?I certainly didn't want to spread any germs. The wash could wait. My family was resourceful enough to scrounge clothing for the next day.
Maybe I wasn't actually getting the flu. I didn't really want to be sick. To be truthful, all I wanted was a little time off. I needed to nurture myself away from people, chores, career and the outside world. Did I have to wait to be sick to do that? As a child, the only respite from school or family chores (抱歉哦,喜马拉雅上有字数限制)
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