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Ancholia Silentio’s Writings

It is a ghost’s poem of anguish:
An engraving on suffering.
It is the dirge of a spectre:
The voices being buried.

It is the murmurs and callings from the abyss.
It is the cries and screams buried deep in silence.

It is words wandering beyond reality, tracing the blurry path of memory.
It is words walking on the edge of death, drawn by the black hole of death.

It is words drenched in tears, adorned with blood.
It is words that sacrifice themselves to suffering.
It is words that attempt to poeticise and ennoble pain.

It is words that speak of unhealable wounds.
It is words that speak of the ineffable around her wounds.

It is words that cast a net into the sea of nothingness, trying to salvage.
It is words that are constantly oppressed and threatened by nothingness.
It is words that are oppressed by silence yet attempt to speak silence.
It is words surrounded by unfinished discourse.

It is words of self-burial, self-excavation; self-hiding, self-exposure; self-exile, self-searching; self-forgetting, self-remembering; self-flagellation, self-destruction, self-mourning, and self-protection.

It is words of confession, testimony, and preservation in her self-repetition, self-entanglement, and self-tearing.

It is words that dissect herself with the scalpel of psychopathology without anaesthesia, yet still find no way out, no resolution, and no self-reconciliation.
It is words that deeply pierce her own pain.

It is words that grievously inflict pain on herself once again, yet the pain is indispensable, for it fleetingly captured the contours of the ineffable, and briefly touched the depths of her unutterable anguish.

It is words that through which existence, allow a person who can neither exist in reality nor die to be resurrected as a ghost, and thus speak.

It is words which attempt to build a realm of spectres in the Void, where ghosts are able to dwell and shadows are able to breathe.

Ancholia Silentio的文字

是鬼魂的苦痛之诗：
是对痛苦的铭刻。
是幽灵的哀歌：
是被埋葬的声音。

是来自深渊的呓语与呼唤；
是深埋在沉默中的哭泣与尖叫。

是游离在现实之外、沿着记忆模糊的踪迹的文字。
是行走在死亡边缘、被死亡的黑洞牵引着的文字。

是以泪水浸染、用鲜血镶边的文字。
是向痛苦自我献祭的文字。
是试图将痛苦诗化、崇高化的文字。

是言说无法治愈的伤口的文字。
是围绕着伤口，诉说无法被言说之物的文字。

是向空无之海撒网打捞的文字。
是被“无”时时刻刻压迫威胁的文字。
是受到沉默压迫却试图言说沉默的文字。
是被未竟之言包围着的文字。

是自我埋葬、自我挖掘；自我隐匿、自我暴露；自我放逐、自我寻觅；自我遗忘、自我追忆；自我鞭挞、自我毁坏、自我哀悼、自我守护的文字。

是在自我重复、自我纠缠、自我撕扯中的自白、证词和留存的文字。

是没有麻醉地将自己用精神病理学的手术刀解剖，却依旧找不到出路、完不成和解的文字。
是将自身的痛苦进行深刻的穿刺的文字。

是令自己再度受到伤害，但其伤害却是必不可少的文字，因为它曾转瞬即逝地捕捉到过那无法被言说之物的轮廓，曾短暂地触碰到过那无法被表述的痛苦的深处。

是通过其存在，一个无法在现实中存在却也无法死去的人得以以鬼魂的身份复活，从而言说的文字。

是在虚空中试图建立起一个幽灵的国度，从而鬼魂可以栖身，影子也可以呼吸的文字。

“Ancholia Silentio’s Writings”

“Ancholia Silentio’s Writings”

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